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| Manmin News No. 219 |
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17343 |
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2011-01-23 |
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I Have Been Released from Panic Disorder and Bulimia and Now I Am So Happy!
Sister Semi Park (20, Kimhae Manmin Church)
"Oh! Father God! I am so thankful for this joy!" It seems that I am dreaming, because now my everyday life has been in continual happiness. Up until this past year I had suffered from panic disorder and several other diseases. I was possessed by anxiety and fear. I even harbored the desire to commit suicide.
The thoughts of suicide in the midst of torment from various diseases
From the time I entered the middle school, I often ran away from home, played hooky (was truant) from school and even stood against my parents and teachers. During my high school days I would hang out with boyfriends and looked into a mirror to adorn myself, so I was nicknamed the 'princess of the mirror.' One day in the summer of 2008, I made up my mind to lose weight. I began decreasing the amount of food and exercised. When I weighed 55kg, my desire to lose intensified and finally I quit eating hardly anything. With the passing of time, I became seriously sensitive and enervated and depression worsened. I even suffered from anorexia and my weight dropped to 43kg. In the spring of 2009 I was sent to the emergency room. But the medical treatment was not effective for me and in a week I was discharged from the hospital. The anxiety and fear that had arisen in my mind when I was sent to the hospital became worse and I began suffering from panic disorder attacks and maladjustment. Symptomatically I suffered from unexpected and excessive uneasiness without reason known as panic attacks. My life at that time was pain itself. I took restorative drinks, health drinks and pick-me-ups drinks because my liver was not in good condition. I received acupuncture and slept enough. I also exercised with expectations of restoration. But none of them had a lasting effect. To the contrary in fact, the symptoms of serious fatigue appeared, I ached all over and I felt like I was lost and losing my mind. I had no longer had the strength to go to the health club and couldn't leave my home or go to school because of the anxiety. When I took a tranquilizer, I felt a little relief, but it was only temporal and passing. Afterwards I would fall asleep. When I tried to quit taking medications I suffered severely from so much stress. I started eating much more than needed. As my weight increased to 65kg I developed bulimia. I was so upset! But, I felt very uneasy unless I continually ate. I dreamt a dreadful dream and became tormented by insomnia. If I slept, when I woke up I suffered from horrible sounds and an uneasiness described only as a 'creepy' sensation. One day I went to a fortune-teller and she said to me, "You will be healed only when a spirit enters you." My mother's friend Senior Deaconess Minja Chung heard that and suggested that I perhaps I could be healed if I attended her church.
I restored good health after repenting of all my sins
On November 21, 2009 I went to Kimhae Manmin Church. I was genuinely comforted after I heard the gospel. If I had allowed a spirit to enter me, it would have been a really dreadful thing. I felt attacks of the enemy devil when I first attended church. I could hardly wake up in the morning on Sunday and was often absent from the church. Bulimia suddenly worsened and I became afraid thinking what would become of me in the future. I was seriously determined to attend church without skipping. After that, bulimia disappeared. But as soon as my good health was restored, I foolishly sought worldly things again. In the August of 2010, I returned to the church and began to keep the Lord's Day holy. At that time while delivering the message, Senior Pastor Dr. Jaerock Lee often shed tears and asked the souls that were committing sins and befriending the world and thereby running toward Hell to quickly turn back and return on the path to salvation. I became pretty clear-minded and earnestly attended Daniel prayer meeting every night. Meantime the symptoms of continually throwing-up and diarrhea occurred. I went to the hospital for an evaluation. I was diagnosed with enteritis and an ovarian cyst. I believed I would be healed if I earnestly continued to pray and received Dr. Jaerock Lee's prayer for the sick in the name of Jesus Christ. The symptoms and pains of enteritis continued and I suffered seriously from fever and chills. I concluded in my mind that I had not repented of my sins properly, and then wrote down my past sins and wrongdoings in the minutest details and gave the letter of repentance to Senior Pastor Dr. Jaerock Lee. I earnestly asked him to intercede for me by his prayer. For the following few days I couldn't eat properly and I cried out mournfully in prayer and thoroughly repented of my sins. My prayer was so mournful and lamentation so strong that many tears welled up in me, even during my meal time. At the Two-term Consecutive Special Daniel Prayer Meeting, I continually repented saying to God in prayer, "God, forgive me, I experienced Your love, but I forsook Your love and returned to the world and sought worldly things." After such a thorough repentance, chronic tiredness disappeared and my severely swollen face and legs were restored to normal. And my weight began to decrease and I became assured that the ovarian cyst had already gone away. In such an assurance I went to the hospital and the evaluation proved there was no cyst. Hallelujah!
1. "I thank God! I love my Lord!" 2. Sister Semi Park was healed of many diseases by fire of the Holy Spirit and is now diligently exercising to fulfill her dream of becoming a health trainer.
Continual blessings came upon my life by the works of the Holy Spirit
I was so thankful to God for His healing love and power that I completely cut off worldly things and offered God all the money that I had received in payment for my gold necklaces and my rings. On November 26, 2010, I came to Dr. Jaerock Lee for the second time and gave him the letter of my resolution for new life and obedience to the Word of God. I attended Friday all-night service and at the divine healing meeting I received his prayer for the sick he spoke from the podium. At that moment blazing fire entered my chest and shoulders. After moving my body and examining some parts of my body, I was assured the muscular pain had disappeared and the aftereffects of bulimia including anxiety and uneasiness had gone away. Tears of thanksgiving welled up from the eyes. I went up to the altar and testified to my healing before the congregation. God's blessing didn't end there. My dream was to become a health trainer. The study and training for gaining the qualification certificate required me to pay for the tuition fee of $1,200, and I had to attend the class even on Sunday. But the director of the health club commended me for my talents and allowed me to study free and even to attend church on Sunday. I also got a part-time job and received a special class opportunity to become a voice trainer for indoor cycling called "spinning" free of charge. Thus, in a short period, my good health and strength were restored and I came to lead a new life in the Lord. Now I will never turn to the right or to the left but only press on to accomplish perfect faith. I give all thanks and glory to God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ who healed me of my diseases, and thank Senior Pastor Dr. Jaerock Lee who has led and prayed for me with the messages of sanctification and tearful prayers.
Spinning, called 'Indoor cycling,' is a form of exercise with classes focusing on endurance, strength, intervals, higher intensity and recovery, that involves using a special stationary exercise bicycle with a weighted flywheel in a classroom setting.
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